Lina Smurfette's memories

Century Egg Porridge Quest

2011-06-01T12:07:00.005+08:00

hello world, wow, after a very long time,

life's been great and im not complaining a single bit. :) and it looks like my tummy is flab-bing. (due to almost every day supper treat :P )

Yesterday, i had a very bad craving of century egg porridge. Tried a few times at New Hawa Restaurant but not really nice, plus abit costly.

So Rocket and me had a search of awesome century egg quest. and yet, we found it.

As told by Rusdi, one of the nicest ones are at china town there. (near CK departmental store, opposite Pearls centre. - not sure of the place name)

Was told that they open till maybe 2-4 Am.

Mr Rocket tried the fish stomach porridge and yours truly, stayed with the century egg one.

i would give a rating of maybe 3.5/5 for the century egg porridge .

very thick and smooth consistency. and very affordable.

total damage with 2 teh peng is less then $10. (each big bowl of porridge cost around $3.80)

happy anni baby 26/06/10

2010-06-26T13:38:00.004+08:00

Dear Karman, today is our 1st year anniversary..
i didnt expect this relationship to go this far.
but as days goes by, i cant get enough of you and your nonsense :)

last few weeks, when i was up due to my toothache, i wrote something for you.. i cant describe how important you are to me so, i wrote it down, just like some GP (general paper). haha

here it goes..

Baby,

At times the days seemed so long, i thought i'd never make it through.
Then suddenly, out of a dream, i have met someone like you..
I had locked up all my feelings and i'd thrown away the key
Until you heart spoke a thousand words i knew were meant to be.
When times turned rough and lonely, and despair fell upon my face, you comforted me and kept me save in that loving special place.

You dont realize what you have and what you have done for me,
but the way you managed to steal my heart is what has set me free.
You've given me a feeling that no one else could ever change,
Your love has touched a place in me that i always found so strange.
Its as if you wre cut right out of a special spell cast upon my heart,
Because the crazy thing about it is, i've loved you form the start.

No one in this wide world could touch the feelings we share,
To the seconds i spend (or waste, haha) with you, nothing can compare.
You've open my eyes and heart just enought and let me live,
You've change my world with magic and the kindness that you give.
My heart was broken, and i thought love was so very far away,
But you came into my life and showed me a BETTER day.

Like crystan clear blue waters in Meldives or a magical sunset in Bali,
That moment speaks a thousands wourds to which no price can be met.
I wish i could just stop time and spend the whole night in your arms, in your eyes...
For when i am with you, theres a feeling even i cannot describe.
Altho my heart holds painful memories that will never be erased,
You touched me with a love so strong, it hides or even burries that lonely place.

Heartbreak, loss and misery were all i ever knew,
Until someone showed me happiness and that someone was you, my prince charming.
Your gentle words and loving arms lift me up when i am down,
And baby, with all you've done for me, you've turned my world around.
And your love is so consistent, like the waves that break the shore.
And with every day my love for you sitll growsm just more and more.

When broken dreams still fill my days and nothing's going right,
You reassure me with your smile and give me back my sight
You sweep a spell across my heart, like a breeze across the sea
And you fill my world with beautiful dreams, and deelings meant to be.
The way you live, the way you love and even so much more,
With every smile that you give, you're all i could ask for.

Baby,
You are in every breath i take and in every tear i cry,
You're every star i wish upon up on the lonely sky.
Everyday with you is heaven, like an angle from above.
A million magic moments, light years and galaxies + black holes .. is for me to give you my love
You are living proof that prayers and dreams really do come true :)
And i thank God for that special day, he blessed my heart with you..

I could speak for a thousand promises or even bent my very soul,
the rest of my live, i 'll be touched with a feeling no one can control.
Fate, destiny or even mambo jambo magic may be the reason that we met,
But all i know is that days with you, i will never forget.
Until the day i found you, i never knew a love so true..
But from today until eternity,
I swear i'll be loving you, only you..
NorKarman Bin Karto..

Happy anni baby.

a new chapter

2010-04-22T17:27:00.001+08:00

a new chapter, hope it'll last forever this time round.

i really cant believe, i've found love.
seriously, this is love and i can really feel it blooming deep within me. =)

i love you karman

i think im ready

2009-06-08T20:13:00.000+08:00

i think....

i might be...

in cloud number 9...

i think....

i might fall for you...

i think...

i really like you..

i can feel the butterflies in my tummy.

u missed me, and i think i miss you too..

kekasih gelapku, i think im ready =)

birthday

2009-05-03T21:34:00.004+08:00

Lynette's birthday was at PRB last week and it was awesome =)

didnt take alot of pictures, anyways, here are some of the pics la. if you wana see most of the pic, can go to joanne's, herman's, or nette's face book ya?

a boring entry

2009-05-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

hello guys, its 2.53 am and im nt sleepy
actually i just got home from the movies.
wolverine was awesome! serious.. all the characters are very good looking, such eye candies =)

anyways,
i just feel like partying larh.. anyone?

love, hugs and regards,
hotty =)

that could have been me, instead?

2009-05-01T19:26:00.003+08:00

last week, i was pretty upset.

an unexpected visitor came.
it was Azza's Bf's parents.

Shes gona get engaged this month, on the 16th.
everyone congratulate her, she was like the happiest human being that night, her expression was like undescripable.

i was speechless.

Last year, Azza promised me that im gona get married first and then her turn and then who ever on the line. but promises are still promises.

seriously, i was so hurt..

can u believe, that coul d have been me, instead?

saturday morning

2009-04-25T06:13:00.002+08:00

i wrote a couple of things on a nice scrap of paper and then laminated it.
the things i wrote were all "whats bad about you and what whats makes me disgusted"

u know, i took almost a day to complete it?
and im proud of my work! plus my handwriting. lol.
so everyday, before i go to sleep, before i go to work and when im remembering you.. i shall just read that piece of paper.
that paper will (i think) make me hate you (eventually) and wake me up from denial.

see how long it takes ya?
sigh.
it so sad to know that im doing this. but what to do, he dosent want to resolve the problem.
i need to take the hard approach to deal with myself.

i went out last night, alone..
i went too.. alot of places.
im just waiting for my kekasih gelap to come home and i can just rant everything to him..

wahhh. ok im hungry
i need to eat

should i just.....

2009-04-24T11:00:00.000+08:00

i miss him so much..

ive been looking at my phone like for hours already..

i wonder what hes doing now,
has he went for his friday prayers already?
has he taken lunch yet? if yes, what did he eat?

early in the morning..
i asked myself after shower..
has he watch the lastest naruto or bleach episodes?
has he read the naruto manga comics online?
has he watch the fast and furious, he told me he wanted to watch it last few month..
did he wake up at 6 this morning to do his morning prayers?
today is friday, he must have worn his fav black colour num T-shirt..
did he ate his medication on wednesday? how is his hand?
did he clean his finger nails after work? did he cut his nails every 2 weeks?
did he take his vitamins today?
did he eat well this couple of days?
what about his hair? did he finish his hair wax already?
and his perfume.. did he finish his perfume too?
did he wash his face and use the scrub that we bought that time?
which jeans is he wearing today? issit the faded one?
what boxers is he wearing today? is it the pink one, i know he likes the pink one.. =)
did he repair his spoilt hp?
is he going out later at night? if he is i dont think hes wearing his white adidas shoe, its gona hurt alot if he walks alot.. i think hes wearing that black slippers?
did he bring along his ear piece?
did he wear the jade ring that i gave him last few years, i know it is his fav?

and the list goes on and on..

i miss him..
but i cant do nothing..
should i just msg him?
i just wana know how he is.

should i just msg?

if he's dumb enuff to walk away, then be smart enuff to let him go..

2009-04-23T11:09:00.001+08:00

i woke up early in the morning, and my heart ached.. because.. because..

i miss Yusof? -_- lame!!

its useless la,
he already made his statement that he WILL NOT be with me anymore. period.
he already made his statement that its NOT going to work between us any more and he dosent want to make things work anymore. period.
he already made his statement that he does NOT love me. period
he already made his statement that he dose NOT want to contact me anymore. period
he already made his statement that it is REALLY OVER. full stop. period

when i think about it, my fucking long years with him.. its sucha waste. he dont even realise that he meant alot to me, and he dosent appreciate what ive given/ done/ sacrifice to and for him..

sad isnt it?

and yes riz,
dugaannya tak boleh dipersoalkan. I was choosen to be in this rough ride, mesti ader sebab kan?

maybe, theres some one out there will appreciate my feelings more?
maybe, theres some one out there will never tell me my attitude sucks?
maybe, theres some one out there will love me more then i love him?
maybe, theres some one out there will trust me whole heartedly?
maybe, theres some one out there will love me the way i am and not try to change me no matter how much ive change for him..?
maybe .. maybe...

maybe i should just wait until i die? ahahaha.. ok thats not gona happen, isnt it?

tears are now gonna be my best friend.
but tht doesnt mean i have to live my life with tears...

and i miss you, but i hate you too!

"if he's dumb enuff to walk away, then be smart enuff to let him go.."

its not late to start somewhere

2009-04-22T19:40:00.001+08:00

i need to start some where..
so, ive deleted your whole chunk of msgs, ive deleted every single picture of you on my phone, ive even deleted your number so that i will not have any reaction to call or msg you when i see your number.

u told me to hate you right? im phasing myself to do that. if that what keeps you happy, i will do happy for you..

its hard, but im getting by. sigh!

anyways, Eda and me went straight to JP after work, watched fast and furious and damn, van diesel is sooo hawt lah! seriously hawt to my socks! hahaha

kekasih gelap is going to Bankok tmr.. and i have no one to talk to.. im gona miss you bahh...

we'll meet for slice fish soup and yong tau foo after u come back okay? =)
(like hes gona entertain me.. like that? haha_

is it raining soooonn... please rain, coz its so warm here..

2 more days to friday and its pay day, im so broke.. ive been using my credit cards to take cab everyday sigh..

tagged is some sort of mina-ish and mat-tish.. and i cant believe im tagging hahaha crap!

ok, im going out for supper and partayy~

my kekasih gelap =)

2009-04-22T11:44:00.001+08:00

i cant wait for next week, may day!
seriously, im going on a 2day 1 night trip with my colleagues, and besties!

see, im even smiling now, OMG its been weeks since i smileeeee like this! hahaha thank you kekasih gelapku =)

D darling...,from the bottom of my broken heart.
thank you, u've been there when im down, u've seen all my shit, u've been there when i was bleeding and u've been there when i was in the verge of insanity.

but im not giving you any kisses yo!
hahaha

hurt

2009-04-21T20:36:00.002+08:00

only Allah knows, what am i feeling now..

but i must fight this feeling, i need to fight this feeling..
eliminate this feeling..

because i know,
you dont give a shit about me any more..
you dont even want to get near me... im like a disease.

im everything bad, im everything low...
im everything disgusting.

ive been treated like trash over and over again, but still im stupid enough to love you.
why?

i cried, i puke, i bleed, i hurt myself,
but still i cant not love you,
why?

why is it so easy for you, but me at the receiving end hurt the most?

hurt to see your pictures, when i cant talk to you, when i cant feel you, when i cant love you..
hurt to know that she accompanied u the whole night, when u didnt even gave me any chance to go out late at night with u last time.

FI-AMAAN-ALLAH

i miss you so much, it hurt so much more..

♥ Lina

2009-04-21T19:46:00.000+08:00

Date: april 19 2009

listening to: Ella's sepi sekuntum mawar merah

omg, this song rawks my socks! Ella u rawks (making the rock hand sign)
like, i need to listen to this song everyday now, my momentum of life sheesh~

heres the lyrics:

Berulang Kali Ku Mencuba
Memujuk Hati
Lupakan Semua Kenangan

Namun Mimpi Bertemu Lagi
Di Saat Engkau
Tiada Di Sisi

Kuberpegang Pada Janji
Tercipta
Antara Kita Dulu

Hilangmu Tiada Berganti
Biarlah
Begini

Kubelayar Di Lautan
Tidak Bertepian
Sesekali Disedarkan
Ombak Yang Mendatang
Aku Seperti Hilang
Punca Arah Dan Tujuan

Aku Puisikan Namamu
Bersama Rindu
Di Dalam Sendu

Kuberpegang Pada Janji
Tercipta
Antara Kita Dulu

Hilangmu Tiada Berganti
Biarlah
Begini

Kubelayar Di Lautan
Tidak Bertepian
Sesekali Disedarkan
Ombak Yang Mendatang
Aku Seperti Hilang
Punca Arah Dan Tujuan

Kubelayar Di Lautan
Tidak Bertepian
Sesekali Disedarkan
Ombak Yang Mendatang
Aku Seperti Hilang
Punca Arah Dan Tujuan

Aku Puisikan Namamu
Bersama Rindu
Di Dalam Sendu
Di Dalam Sendu
Di Dalam Sendu

yes baby, hilang mu tiada berganti =(

ok, enuff of the emo shit. well, im up early this morning coz papa woke me up for solat subuh and my parents asked me to tag them to mustaffa to buy some things which later i turn down because i am soooo freaking sleepy~ seriously..

ive not even mop and vac the floor. and my dressing table is like crap! i cant barely put my hand. im so disgusting. lol MESSY bitch! lol

and tmr is monday, blues blues~ why is it so fast when we're having fun? and why is it so hard and slow when we're not and when we're hurt.

sigh.

ouh yeah, anyways, i just got an invitation.. for my friends wedding next week! im so not excited (ofcourse im excited for you Marlia... but im not excited for myself.. for no fucking reason, i was so emo when i got the inviation, anyways Marlia, CONGRATS! hahaha)
and it says :

invitation for both Lina and partner.
"ouh yes, i have a partner now yeah.."n well.. alone again next week.. =(

i miss you
i cant take it no more.. =(

♥
Lina

drunk and not loving it.

2009-04-18T15:40:00.001+08:00

i just got home from Ab's katong!
it was fun fun fun..

Both Eda and Lynette was drunk! and they puke a couple of times! yes, they did. -_-
and Ab, your carpet needs dry cleaning this time.

Thanx Dada, Ab for having us. not forgetting Zaki and his twin brother together with his teacher friend.. it was nice meeting you guys! and seriously, u guys can SING for nuts!

till we meet again at PRB on 28th!

*sungguh malu! apa yg sudah ku sms kepada si kekasih gelap?! urrrgghh!

i miss you =(
miss me too?

one month

2009-04-15T20:58:00.004+08:00

been months since you left me, this very date, this very time.. this very place i sat crying, this very shirt i wore, this very hair style im having, this very feeling..
the scar,
the pain,
the tears,
the hurt,
the doubt,
the emotion,
the trouble,
the fear,
the anger,
the agony,
the despair,
the torment,
the misery,
the suffer,
the torture,
the distress,
the disappointment,
the failure,
the missing..
the love.......

just to let you know, its our anniversary today..
so, happy anni

still waiting

2009-04-14T15:23:00.003+08:00

i wonder why i cant use my multiply to cross post all my entries anymore. such a boo hoo!
like there's some bug like that.

im so gona partayyy this friday! Ab! see you soon!

who wants to go with me, put up your hands!

and im quite happy today, Sam said that i might have shed some grams (cannot say KG because its not official yet, just yet.. haha)
is it the tights or is it my long sleeves.

and ofcourse, i miss you

call me one day? will you.. coz i went sleepless for the past few weeks already.
i cant stand this shit any more..

sigh.

im living my life. but seriously, i cant get over you and im still waiting~

Life's a bitch

2009-04-14T15:21:00.002+08:00

What the fuck is wrong with multiply!? my old old entries are all on the first page and the new ones are duplicated.
this is super bad la..

but anyways, whatever...

I received a couple of cute gifts from both XX and Sandy. Sandy bought me a purple handbag and flat ionic flat iron from Thailand and XX bought me a cute T-shits and a multi purpose bag from Taiwan!

this morning, i cant sleep.. so i decided to wake up very early for breakfast and to get ready to work, since its monday, i tried to cheer myself up!
i heat up the flat iron and used it on my hair.
it was the very first time, i did it with perfection! hhahaha
while i was doing the last few strands of my hair, suddenly.. i caught up with my breath..
terlintas skejap..
the days that u would sit behind me.. to flat iron my hair before we went out..
u would say, "rambut cantik, very smooth.. i love your hair sayang"

those days.. yes, those days....

after work, i met Nunu and Ape for din din..

OMG, i so miss u bitches la!
April was shocked and thought that i was lying when i told her that we broke off.. why does everyone's reaction is the same?

its so tiring u know...

and Rizzy, if youre reading this, i miss you too, bitch!

i miss u

2009-04-12T20:04:00.004+08:00

listening to: Matahari by Agnes Monica

this very song, u dedicate to me and you even sang to me, when we fought that time.. but it was no use, because ur decision dosent stand for the song, dosent cost the means and its heart breaking.

Engkau tipu yusof, tapi kenape? ='(

Tmr's monday and i can feel the blues already.

I hired 3 part timers to do cold call and database cleaning, tmr, hopefully everything goes smoothly. i want my monday to end good..

Last week was Ab's last day (sadssss...)
Ab, im so gona miss you.. and the shit and the smoke break, the lunch time, the NUS and talk cock sessions.. now, i got no one to share my sorrows with and i got no one to cousel me when i always think abt him, no one to bitch about "Bom Bom" and i got no "elder brother" shoulder to cry on when im in deep shit!
Thank you for your kindness, your evilness, you cheers, your motivation and lastly, thank you for being the "older brother" for both Eda and me.
We're so gona miss your shit, bro! Take care and dont for get to invite us to Dada's and yours Katong Okeh!

we're gona celebrate Lynette's bdae party at dbl o, and im not sure i wana come, coz.. im not a night life kinda person.
Me:"should i go? i dont really like clubbing.."
Eda:" Pegi je ah, kan Single.. no one to halang you. u should enjoy"
Me: "enjoy? my enjoy and your enjoy is not the same ok gurl"

i know that theres no one to halang me and all that, but usually last time, when i go back late, he will fetch me. and send me home till door steps. but now? theres no one to do that for me.. =( and i miss that feeling..

i feel like karaoke-ing. i want to shout my lungs out.. i want to cry when i sing.. i want to let it out!
maybe im taking leave on friday.. i wana go to the beach.. any one to go with me? i just want to relax.. i just want to chill and forget about things..

ouh yeah, did i tell u guys that.. i web cammed with Karman and Azza!? hahah from 6pm to 3am! noookidding!
because i was too bored and no one wants to entertain me. (sad right?) haha

OMG,see shiok sendiri.. i look so geeky with specs! haha
Karman says "retro makcik bedah's specs". yeah yeah..

ok la, bersambung lagi nanti yeah.. mummy wants to blanja roti prata~ hahaha

i missssss you =(

good bye

2009-04-11T18:31:00.003+08:00

we are moving.
yes, all the memories, will be left, unfortunately.. it will.. sigh!

packing my things up, was such a pain.. had a very hard time doing it.
i cried, picking up every single thing on the drawer, folding every clothes i wore last time, packing all the soft toys ive collected.. my barbie dolls..
my pictures..
i broke down..

those times we spent in my room.. those times u whispered u love me, those times u held me in your arms, those time u kissed me passionately, those times you mopped the floor whenever its dirty, those times when you accompanied me study, those time we ate mcdonalds together, those times we slept on my bed after a hard day at work.. those times, those times..

remember this?well u used to love this bed.. haha well, no more bed sheet..

All packed up and almost ready to go..
good bye 216.
im gona miss you. damn miss you
and the memories. ='(

seriously, i cant take this anymore.
im weeping like hell now.

arrrgh, i hate this!

sampai syurga

2009-04-09T21:27:00.002+08:00

Faizal Tahir- Sampai Syurga

Ku membenarkan jiwaku
Untuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku
Untuk bersama kamu

Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah kumerasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu
Harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu
Terus ku tertunggu

Di hatiku masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cinta mu
Hanya satu
Hanya kamu

Ku membiarkan hatiku
Untuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Untuk tatapan kamu

Bersamamu harapanku
Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua
Untuk dirimu saja

Ku mahu dirimu
Bahagia untuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku

Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

* i would sing this to my husband, someday... =) hopping.. haha~

<3 sampai syugar.. yeah?

boo! no title!

2009-04-08T11:59:00.000+08:00

im now sitting in this lonely office... doing nothing... at all..
usually at this hour, this period, i'll be struggling to keep up with my work.
but changes take place without any notice ya?
doing my work non stop is the only way to keep my mind off the problems im facing,
to keep my mind out of you..

everyone has been asking me, how come im "so into work" now adays.. and how come my "eyes" are so puffy when i came to work.
i told them, i got minor water retention.. i think i drink too much before i go to bed.

i think i really made a good job, by hiding all these while.. haha
sigh.

The HR congress is next week, need to start packing those folders already.
i feel like buying a new dress..
who wana go with me, i blanja!

-_-

Loving you could take my life..
But when i look into your eyes..
I know you're worth that sacrifice..

You told me to be strong and never give up,
I'll stand and hold those words..
I pray that someday u'll love me like u used too..
Because i love you so much..

and im still searching for the answer, what im lack in, what makes you half hearted..
and what makes me love you so much, after what you've done to me..

im missing u more and more each farking day..

penantian

2009-04-07T17:58:00.000+08:00

melayang.. dan hilang.......
sendiri dalam sepi....
dalam sebuat hasrat yang mati

penantian.....

sigh

im missing u like...

2009-04-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

im so darn tired these days,
mana nk kejar budak2 part timers, mana nk buat management report, mana nk buat commission structure yg baru, mana nk calculate sales figure and sales report, mana nk buat sales comms, mana nk call clients buat contra, mana nk jaga partnerships..mana mana mana mana semua nya..

i think i can just die..
die without ur love...

ouh yeah, finally i can relax.. friday is a public holiday! yeyness!

i feel like baking.. lah, but super lazy.

im missing you, like hell
i wish ure here with me.. =(

missing her besties

2009-04-04T06:26:00.001+08:00

Lina Rahman, misses her besties

NUNU, PIZ, RON, D and CHRIS

where are you guys!

='(

i wana go shopping, i need some retail therapy.. and i wana go to the beach too.. any one?

vitamins for my love

2009-04-03T17:41:00.000+08:00

i know that you're sick and not feeling well,

so flowers, card with wisdom words and vitamins are sent to your door steps to make you feel happy.

hope you rest well, eat healthy and relax your mind..

i love you, alot and its still hurts.

a

2009-04-03T17:38:00.000+08:00

Doa buat kekasih

2009-04-01T18:45:00.001+08:00

listening to: Doa buat kekasih - Ramli Sarip & Khadijah Ibrahim

i was given, muslce relaxer and anti-depressants. i ate that during lunch and was superrrrrrr sleepy sia.. hahaha (they didnt mentioned anything abt drowsiness) and super high haha

anyways, i went out after work, to.... jurong east, then to Imm.. i dunno why im there, but yeah, just to rehat kan minda. and i got home at 1030pm.

i've never felt this lonely before.. like very very lonely.. no one to talk to, no one to text, no one to laugh at, no one to talk mushy with, no one to smile at, and lastly, no one to smoooch with...

Ya Allah..
Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan dia milikku, tercipta buatku, satuaknlah hatinya dengan hatiku.
Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami, agar kemesraan itu abadi..

Dan Ya Allah, ya tuhanku ayng maha mengasihi..
seringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi.

Tetapi Ya Allah,
sekiranya engkau telah takdirkan dia bukan miliku, bawalah dia pergi jauh dari pandanganku..
Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku. Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan..

Serta Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yang maha mengerti,
berikanlah aku kekuatan..
Melontar bayanganya jauh ke dada langit.. Hilang bersama senja nan merah, agar aku bahagia, walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya..

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku..
Pasrahkanlah aku dentan tadkir Mu..
Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan adalah yang terbaik buatku kerana Engkau maha mengetahui segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini..

Ya Allah..
Cukuplah Engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku di dunia dan di akhirat..
Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini..
Jangan Engkau biarkan aku sendirian di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat.
Menjuruskan aku ke arah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran..
Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman, supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat memnina kesejahteraan hidup ke jalan yang engkau redhai..

Dan kurniakanlah padaku ketutunan yang soleh..

Amin.. Ya Rabbal A'lamin...

another sad day

2009-03-30T08:09:00.001+08:00

please read this,
http://stella69.multiply.com/journal/item/647/Looking_For_Responsible_Man_

Ida, thank you, you are so sweet.

I tried to list down the bad and good things about you and our relationship, but i cant find any bad ones.. all noted are good.. (how am i suppose to forget and leave you just like that this is too depressing) i don't know whats happening anymore.
i broke down many times,
an uncle in the bus even asked me what happened when i cried in the bus.
its too heart breaking..

my phone is beside me, my msn is here..
i saw him online.. i want to click on his name and chat with him like our usual routine everyday when im at the office, but i refrain myself.. i cant do this.. he dosent love me any more..
im scared he say im pressurizing him and always pushing himm.. but the actual fact is that im not..

It is not even 2 full months yet balik dari Bali, and he told me he dosent love me any more?
When did this fall out of love happened? when?
I kept asking myself what did i do wrong? Why didnt he give me any chance?
i tot we're suppose to forgive and forget? I tot you love me so much that it hurts when we didnt meet for one whole week?

your reason to leave me is so vague.. "i dah tawar hati" "i dont love you like last time anymore"
i cant accept those reasons..

mcm sekelip mata kau berubah..

you're clever enuff to tell me about other ppl lives, dumping their girlfriends, cheating, not being able to look after their girlfriends and all that.. and in the end, ure still doing it.
i wonder why,
what makes u change?
u change so much since .. i freaking donno when.

thinking of you leaving me is so absurb!
this cant be happening..

My friends told me to hold on and some said to move on.. im so confuse, i just feel like running away..
away from all this things.
it makes me upset.. moody, no appetite.. cant concentrate.. scared..
makes me into a person that is not me, at all..

i cant stop loving you

2009-03-29T18:29:00.000+08:00

im sorry that i hurt you,

im sorry that i was not a good gf

im sorry that im too egoistic

im sorry that i made you feel like you've been insulted

im sorry that i called you names

im sorry that i kept pressurizing you

im sorry that i myself is a scumbag

im sorry that i cried so much

im sorry that i will wait for you, forever..

im sorry that.. i cant stop loving you.

im sorry

please reply me love

2009-03-28T11:38:00.001+08:00

im back! from BBDC.
this blog seems to be the only companion for me these days. hahahaha

mummy and papa fetched me, and we had some snacks.. i told them that i cant forget him, and its natural that i still love him alot.. i nearly cried..
my dad told me that, if he dosent want me, why should i waste my pride chasing him.. theres alot out there.. and i cried. yes, thats the first time i cried infront of my parents..

my mum, was supportive over this things.. she told me, not to worry.. "kalau B suka kat usop, and nk sangat kat dia, u should try your best. if you never try ur best, u might not know what love is. kalau B nk wait for him.. u should know and understand the consequences." "Kalau B thinks that u can find someone better, i guess theres alot, just dont think of usop any more.. start afresh, dont wast time.. u need to think positive of all this, not just sit there, like some miricle gona happen"

Sigh~

mummy and papa also fetch Azza dari ugama class (sejak bilah tah masuk ugama class) and she screw me upside down. she told me to wait "what i feel is real love" since i cannot let him go.

which is which? now, im really confuse. sigh~

scumbag have no balls! at all!

2009-03-28T04:55:00.000+08:00

seriously, guys with no balls ..block block in msn all that,

and i think that scumbag blocked me in his msn.. because , my friend says so.. not just that, i can feel that he does that, because when ure so long with someone, u know their attitute too well, ya? -_-

no farking balls! who teach u to have no balls?!?
because seriously,. i didnt taught you that when you're with me..

OMG, congrats lina.. its the beginning of a stage, anger is another way to make me not think abt that scumbag.
i need to do this in order not to love him anymore.

i cant do this anymore, its meniksakan.. u should see me now.. im not the gold lina i used to be, i need to be strong, i need to live on.. i need to take care of myself.

oh yeah, yesterday, we went lunch.. and Corrs (named after the corrs - Lynette, Ab, Eda and me) were cheering me up because im down ever since that scumbag left me. so yeah.. while we were walking on our way back to office, they were talking abt being players, so eventually, i woke up from stonning, and aske "how to become one?"

Ab ans "Easy, Dress up, good posture, make up , smile and social contacts"
me : "easy to say.."
Ab : "youre easy Lina, I can teach you if you want" "But firstly, u need to dress up"
me : "dress up? to tell u the truth, ive never dress up since im with him"
Ab : "see, thats when you're wrong.. "
me : "because i need to click with him what.. he wear simple, and i wear simple la" "he always say, pakai baju sama pun tak pe, he see me, not the baju. he loves me the way i am"
Ab : "itu perangkap, he wants u not to look nicer then him thats why" "Ok from now on, u dress up and doll up like a princess, accessorise and shoes play apart.. ur nails must be manicured every time. dont sleep late, and eat well if you dont want to exercise. i bet u have alot of shoes, so wear! hes not here anymore, so theres no one to complain whos shotter and whos taller"
me: "takes time, maybe i start on monday"
Ab: "yes! see.. there u go.. u know what, i can potray you being the mysterious lady.. that can make everyone fall for you" "serious, im not lying.."
me : "ok, mysterious girl i am.. ok then, Monday is the first day of everything. we start a fresh~"

what a waste, years with a scumbag. tsk tsk tsk tsk.

but, if u feel im not good enuff for you, u can jump. coz i will be and i am better than any other girls that gona be with you.

i"ll show you! dare me

hey scumbag, its your fucking birthday today!

2009-03-26T17:34:00.001+08:00

i went on half day today, to celebrate your birthday, but you didnt want to meet me..

Ab, D, Eda and Lynette are right, i should just list down whats good and whats bad about you and our relationship. and ofcourse, move on, since you already did from the first time u dump me.

i think i wana be miss independent! i want to not care about you anymore.. because, its no use mending a sunken ship, and since im the only one putting sweat and tears to do that whereas i didnt see even 1% from you.

You can only say you're sick, you can only say you're irritating, you can only say that i paster you, you can only say that im pushing you, You can only say that u're happy to be single, You can only say that im not good enuff for you, you can only say u feel bad about me, and you can only say youre sorry..

But listen here, u broke my heart tad to many times over and over again.

Those "i love you,since the first time we met', i think its bullshit,
those "i will love you, forever and ever.. u're my first and my last" , i think thats bullshit as well.
those "i will never leave you, no matter how much you change", i think thats super bullshit la.
those " i will take care of you and be RESPONSIBLE in any ways", i think thats fucking bullshit.
those "i'll marry you and have 3 kids, i love kids" , i think thats another bullshit.
those "i miss you.. sayang" i think thats bullshit either.

anways, not to side track, im now in this very grand Royal plaza on Scotts. very nice.. with the petals and all that. i bought some nice clothes, as i didnt pack any..
new shoes, new dress, new panty, new make up, new everyyything, perhaps, new me?

i'll be going work from here tmr, haiz.. another lonely night..
should i call any one to accompany me?

yes? no? hmm..

anyways, i wana take a very niceeeee long bath!

take care all..

take care you fucking scumbag, its your fucking birthday today! -_-

25 march 7.40pm

2009-03-25T15:40:00.001+08:00

i was ok in the morning though out the late afternoon..
chatting with him on msn and laughing, saying we're friends now and motivating myself not to think that i ever love him..

i was 40% happy, and thats considered ok. greaaat achievement,

i really want to meet him, i miss him so much..
but he said that hes going out with his cousin to buy his bbq stuffs..

so yeah, i was ok..
i msged him again to confrim where hes going after buying his things.. and he said that hes going on a blind date with his cousin.

so shocked, how could he do this to me?

angry, jealous, sad, dissapointed.. only gawd knows.

i cant do this anymore.

i still love him so very much after soo much things he did.

im fucking stupppppid

=)

2009-03-23T19:48:00.001+08:00

im tired of everything, so i have decided to be a good girl and give everything that he wants. i want to get over things, and i have to forget him as what he said, he's not interested in me.

ive been begging like shit for the past weeks/ months and treated like trash!

i got pride, and i got people around me to support me whatever i do, whenever i do...

talked to Ab and Eda over lunch, and what they said were true enought to make me wake up.
If he loves me, he would never leave me to find solution to his own satisfaction. and if he loves me, he would never say things that made me cry, if he loves me, he would never care if i broke his heart or not.. and if loves me, he would never want me to save the sinking ship alone.

and lastly, if he loves me, he wouldnt say its all my fault, he would say its "our" fault..

if u can show me that u dont need me, i can also show you that i dont need you to survive yes? and if he can have crushes, why cant i date?

Ab told me that, i need to dress up, i need to impress other guys out there, and be fab!

its been a very long time since i dress up and put make up on my face.its been a long time since i put a smile on my face too. =)

i want to be stress free like him, i want to sleep well like him, i want to be carefree like him, i want to go out like him, i want to be single like him, i want to have a crush like him.. i want to be happy like him.. hehe

wake up lina! u have many things to catch up! hes gone, like he wants too.. so why worry? if he wants u back, he would have done it long time ago without u begging like a fag.

i went to bugis just now after a loong looong day at work.
bought a cuteeeeeee slipper! omg its been so long since i splurge! hahaha

and i told my parents that im not with him, no more.. my parents were supportive. im glad that they are, papa told me that,"if he dosent appreciate u no matter how rude and problematic u are, and if he dosent have the balls to change u into a better person, hes just not that into you" "go find someone else B, u know whats good and whats bad out there, 6 years is a deal to know that u really love that someone or not.. and if he still says that hes confuse.. he will be much more confuse when he gets married to you" "im not blaming yusof or u, this si general.. and u kids should take note of this" "if hes the one for u, he will come back for good, no begging, no crying, no starving.. and if one day, u found a new boy for yourself, try to make him love you more than u love him k"

Thanx pa.. ure the greatest.

TO ALL PEOPLE OUT THERE, IM SINGLEEEEE and READY TO MINGLE! =p

i cant sleep

2009-03-22T08:37:00.001+08:00

i cant sleep, so here i am.. blogging.

tmr's jean's wedding, and i have nothing to wear.. wanted to go out to buy that dress that i saw yesterday but i have no one to follow. most of my friends are out with their other half, my parents are at malaysia and my sister will be going out later too..

i wana meet him, talk to him, hold him..
i wana call him and msg him but hes been saying that im pusing him.. and hes tired of me.
i wana ask him out but im scared he'll turn me down like he did every other time..

this is hopeless.. i know that this isnt going anywhere, but why am i still saving this sinking ship? why?

will my feelings for him fade like his feelings for me? ='(

funny

2009-03-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

just that i need to share with u guys something..

i was chatting with azza just now and she sent me an edited picture, just that i need to show because i think its funny.

well. i just think its funny, how u feel for me. sedangkan aku sendiri tak buat ini mcm bendak.

kau ni betul2 childish la azza. hahahaha mcm siak!

a boring night

2009-03-21T21:16:00.001+08:00

another alone session at vivo, watched Hes just not that into you.. and im glad to say that i like it. Yes, i like it.

Guess what?
its 12.51am and im at west coast mcdonalds! yes, im not kidding. i feel like, i need some mango ice blend after the movie, so i flag a cab, and here i am!

VERY very refreshing, after a hard hard week, im drinking sugared drink, at last! with extra extra whip cream!
the cute barista asked me "whip cream?"
me "yes, please, hard time needs to mend with whip cream, the more the marrier"
cute barista "haha.. hard time yes? alone here at night?"
me "ouh no, im here with my boyfriend, Acer" (pointing at my lappy)
cute barista " good for you! ok then since the more the marrier, i give u this, u can take it back and mend more"

he gave me one tin of whip cream! CRAZY.

mr cute barista is still looking at me.. and im hiding myself behind the lappy.. so shyyy! hahaha (like sec sch days like that, when a boy looks at you, then u blush blush.. hahah)

21 march 2009

2009-03-21T13:54:00.002+08:00

the bbq was crappy, with loadsa cute guys around.. seriously, what D told me was, true enuff to believe. haha
chatted with afew of them but my heart and mind was somewere else. couldnt concentrate, very restless.. it seems that our frequency is very different, very very different.. not like me and yusof, we talk just about anything.. under the sun.. above the clouds..

D promised me to send me home at 4 but she was drunk and i have no freaking idea where she went...
i walked from one point to another..stopped occationally, coz i saw couples holding hands, whispering sweetly..
cant hold back my tears no more.. it hurts me so bad..

i can still feel for him.. i love him so much.. hes like my air, i'll suffocate if i dont breathe..
what can i do to win him back?

OMG, i cant belive im this bad.. its like, i didnt eat, i didnt drink that much, i didnt sleep for the past week.. i cant think. seriously, if this prolong, i be in drepression mode, i can just go mad.

sigh, im so whatever.

please God, i need to wake up NOW

this is for you..

tired

2009-03-20T20:38:00.000+08:00

i had a blast with bestie tonight, watched the Mall cop. was hilarious..
Nur, what you told me.. i shall think abt it. thank you so much, i guess.. people who hurt me are not worth my tears..at all -_-
once again, thank you Nur, i enjoyed every min with you.

Its almost 12 midnight now, and Azza urge me to follow her and her bf to their friends BBQ.
she told me "Got alot of cute boys! just choose and make your pick.. ure single, so get wasted, no one cares anyways, so have fun and live the fullest" (yeah righttt...)
Live the fullest may consider but get wasted? hahaha thats so damn difficult.
well shall see, who get wasted first ya?
im kinda half hearted to go, since ive never went to any "friends" BBQ or drinking sessions before.. its like tak kena gaya gitu. cant believe, i''ll be mixing with a bunch of insane ppl.

ok la, i need to go now, azza promised me to send me home later, hope she keep her promise,

19 march 2009

2009-03-19T18:23:00.000+08:00

Dear blog..
you're the only one, that i can rant and turn to now, theres no one else that i can talk too and no one else that can feel what im feeling now.. the feeling is worst then slicing ur skin with a sharp blade.
i spoke to different ppl, but they seems not to understand me..
i may look strong but im not that strong after all.. im as soft as tofu. yo~

my neck hurts, my eyes swollen, my head spinning..

i ate a couple of panadols and some cough syrup to get myself in the mood hoping to sleep, but it didnt work.. at all.

i kept thinking why is my life like this, and what i did wrong..

he said that i have attitude problem, i talk back and im rude.
sometimes i go over board,
yes, its all me....

i talk without thinking, i do actions without knowing..
but i love you without any condition..

u asked me to save money, for our future together, but now im gona use that money for shopping.. and im gona donate 1/4 of it to the mosque. because, i know.. what comes around, goes around..

after work today, i went to IMM, sure brought me alot of memories..
the first time we met, the first time we kissed, the first time we ate together, the first time we held hands, the first time we talk about getting married, the first time our parents met infront of giant, the first time we fell in love...

i went home by cab and teringat yg kita duduk kat that very same spot, waiting for the sur-charge time to be over, and teringat about how u asked me to go for that blood test.. saying that u're scared that we cant have babies if both of us are telesimians and planned to have how many kids..

cant tahan, i just hop on that cab, i cried so hard that the poor taxi driver asked me why..
taxi uncle told me that, i should stay strong and face the reality.. but uncle, its easy say than done. and u guys say these same things because ure not in my position right now..

hope tmr will be a better day,

Please forgive me baby, i cant stop loving you

19 march 2009

2009-03-19T07:31:00.000+08:00

what am i to do with all the gifts and present I bought for you?
what am i to do with all the bookings i've made?
what am i to do with all the plans for next week?
what am i to do with my leave i took?
what am i to do with all the preparations that ive considered and done?
what am i to do with myself that is not ready to let you go?

what am i to do now?

sigh

buat seorang kekasih - slam

2009-03-18T19:26:00.001+08:00

Oh sepi terasa
Setelah cinta pudar di hati
Tak mungkin dapat ku melupakan
Kerana dialah kekasihku

Dan di saat ini
Ku masih terus menyintaimu
Melupaimu tak mungkin ku mampu
Terdengar suaramu memanggilku

Dahulu kita sungguh mesranya
Bergurau senda saling menyayang
Kita berjanji bersumpah setia
Hingga ke akhir hayat ingin bersama

Kita merancang, Tuhan menentukan
Tiba masanya, kau pergi... tak kembali

Tinggal aku keseorangan
Tiada lagi gurau sendamu
Siang malam sepi kurasa
Aku rindu kemesraanmu

Ku terkilan hajat tak sampai
Kasih putus di tengah jalan
Tinggal aku keseorangan
Tiada lagi gurau sendamu

this is so emo.. im feeling this song. i think my eyes are swollen. better sleep now.
i'll be heading down to SIM tmr, so, see u soon Untie Tina.. =) hope to have lunch with bestie and D

18th march 2009

2009-03-18T06:27:00.000+08:00

".. it hurts me so bad to see you cry, i'm so sorry, i really am"

".. no matter how hard i cry, it wont make you come back to me..
It wont make you love me like you use to.."

17 march 2009

2009-03-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

...and he left me

i love him still, yes i do...

superwoman

2009-03-16T18:32:00.001+08:00

this is for you

Karyn White - Superwoman Lyrics

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table,
and make sure that your coffee has its sugar and cream...
Your eggs are overeasy, your toast unlikely,
all that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me...
Now you say the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet,
and I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me...
We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting so deep,
I've got my pride, I will not cry, but it's making me weak...
I'm not your superwoman...
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down,
and think that everything is okay...
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you...
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you...
But when you get there, you just tell me you're not hungry at all,
you said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk...
You like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changed,
I'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me the same...
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fair,
I've got my pride, I will not cry, still I can't help but care!!!

I'm not your superwoman...(oh no no no!!!)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay...
Boy I am only human...(I'm only human!!!)
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

I'm not your superwoman...
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay...
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

Oooh, baby!!!
Look into the corners of your mind,
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times,
but I can't be the superwoman that you want me to be!!
I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return love to me!!
I'm not your superwoman!!!!

I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay...
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

Oh!!! If you feel it in your heart and you understand me,
stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me!
(hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo...)
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet,
but you got to realize that you got to be sweeter to me!!!
I need love, I need just your love, I'm not your superwoman...

please some one wake me up~

my heart must be wrong...

2009-03-15T16:39:00.002+08:00

Love so special, I thought we belonged...

Four white walls are closing down on me,
Chest of mine begging for air to breathe.
Tears fell leaving a salty taste on these lips,
Crowded images in mind creating an eclipse.

Clumps of ripped curls in the palms of hands,
I am crazy in love, they seem to misunderstand.
Screams pound rapidly in my deranged mind,
Guessing my love for him has been redefined.

Feels a gun shot hit though, I'm alone to die,
Guessing forever was just another white lie.
Fighting with emotions, beating myself down,
Met you with a smile and left me with a frown.

Questions unanswered leading my way to you,
Pumping aroma had stopped it's become blue.
Breaking the door, your body on some chick,
Who'd guess you would quickly become a prick.

Quick-witted; using cute words to manipulate,
Strangled by your words; I constantly suffocate.
Picturing that scene again, eyes begin burning,
Mind exploding as my weak heart remains hurting.

Nights yearning toward you, I feel its emptiness,
Past pictures of us is all I have left to reminisce.
Replays of our happiness like a forgotten montage,
Driving myself crazy some more, in this lovers mirage.

Emotionally delusional, my heart must've been wrong.

i'll be right here waiting for you

2009-03-15T16:03:00.003+08:00

it was sucha horrible week for me, those lonely days, lonely trips, lonely nights, lonely self..
i cant believe im adapting this from time to time..
and i cant believe that im actually in this very situation hoping ,for a dream come true. its very strange, i never tought that this could happen to.. me, u.. us.

anyways, i just got home from ramen ten (again, alone.. ) i ordered quite alot, but didnt manage to eat.
at that very point, i felt like crying.. im in sucha mess and i have no idea how to solve it.
everywhere i go reminds me of you.. your smile, your laugher, your jokes, your smell.. your touch.

its tough i know, but life goes on.
i kept telling myself that, if we're not fated to be together, then its ok..
if we are,
its best if we talk and change for good..

we are not young anymore, and i dont want to waste our time.. i dont want to hang in there, knowing that everything might not turn good..

im speechless, total blank when you said you "tawar hati"
......................................................................................................

You told me you loved me
i told you i loved you too
i was stupid not to see
but what was i to do?
now i question if you're true,
if things will ever work between us two
you don't have a clue about what i'm going through
truefully
i don't know what to say
hopefully
i pray to god im mistakened
that you do love me
because i miss when our love glistened
thats how i hope you want it to be

i swear, by the moon and the stars in the skies... i'll be right here waiting for you.

FUCK, someone wake me up! ahahahah Dammit

15 march 2009 sunday

2009-03-15T09:56:00.000+08:00

ha! man u lost against Liverpool.

what an ass man u's are? lol hahahahahahahah

i wana go out bt i have no one to go with and im not sure when i wana go,
i need some retail therapy, and makan sessions.

any one?

10 march 2009

2009-03-10T17:26:00.001+08:00

backache! SAKITTTT....!

i wana have a massage now, i said NOW~
i wish im at bali right now, the breeze, the sun, the pool, the flowers.. the SPA!~

Tmr's wednesday..

8 march 2009

2009-03-08T17:22:00.001+08:00

im full of crap and ego.

why cant i just say im sorry? why i cant deal things a one go and not to think abt it the next day?
disaster struck and here i am writing like a fool.

not sure, why im here in the first place.

Every time i think of you, i always catch my breath.
and im still standing here, and you're miles away..
And i wonder why we left us..
I spend my time, just thinking abt you.. and it's almost driving me wild..

I keep looking for something i cant get.
i try to be descreet, but then i blow it again.
but now its over, the moment has gone.
I follow my hand and not my head, and i know i was wrong...

Remembering my yesterdays,
I wish i could turn back the clock,
coz, love is nothing without you

you are my light, u are my guide,
bcause i love you, i'll be right by your side

MCM CB. SOMEONE PLEASE WAKE ME UP!

07/01/09

2009-01-07T06:05:00.001+08:00

.... and i cant believe, i'll be another year older this year. sigh!
well, a year older, a year wiser, yes?

I re-watched Twilight the second time this week, the story line is rather... erm, stagnant, but in not sure what makes me wana watch again.
Im so gona buy those 4 books. lols (after i finish 5 people you'll meet in heaven)

Ouh where O where can i find a vampire (a good looking one ofcourse, preferbably like Edward) who would make me one of them? (and yes, i wish again...)

my last post, stating that i want to do an entry abt my New year's resolution right?
anyway, here it goes..

eat well, sleep well, look well, dress well
maybe a care at the end of this year?
continue my studies in business or psycology
cherrish my love ones more
relax, be stress free
not to be a workaholic
take up a new language (or perfecting my arabic?)
smile more
swear less
upgrade my career prospects (work smart and work hard too la ya?)
respect others- dont look down on others
and respect myself

and i cant wait to get married and go to bali.
the sun, the beach, the sea.. and eye candies!

and oh yeah, my last resolution :- to perfect my sense of humour, not to procrastinate.
hope my resolutions stick this time. haha

i WANA FUCKING ROCK 2009!

Have a splendid day lovelies!

05/01/09

2009-01-05T09:53:00.000+08:00

I took half day last Wednesday to run away from everyone, especially work.
it was new year's eve and i cant be bothered to think much.

So it be,YongAn's and Azhar last day at work. i so gona miss those smokers!
im gona miss YongAn's horrified laughter and him going to my cubical every morning to say hi and to eat my chocolates especially my M&M(s).

right after the farewell lunch @ HV, i headed stright to Orchard to have chit chat sessions with my besties.
we had Japs and went to borders to browse thru some books and i decided to buy a few books since i just had my pay.

gosh, its been so long since i watched movies (er.. not really la. ) we watched the "bed time stories" was nice. i like adam saddler! really.. hahaha

ouh yeah, did i told you that i got adik a new Acer laptop for her birthday? yes i did.. im not kidding ya! i almost cried when i paid that damn thing.
anyways, i need to give her something else since i told her that i'm gona get her another present. (yeah, me and my big mouuuuthhh) -_-

presents aside,

im here to bid my 2008 with TLC

Good bye 2008, good bye sorrows, good bye hard time, good bye heartache..

Hello 2009, may my 2009 be a blessing in disguise. more hope, happiness, weath and love and everthing nice ya..

my 2009 resolutions?
haha..

i guess theres loads. i'' update next time ya? back to work now.

Ciao beautiful ppl =)

sunday 21december 08

2008-12-21T07:47:00.000+08:00

i had the most loveliest night of my life yesterday (err.. sort of). Baby and i went to West coast mcdonals and went to the park to take a very long breezy walk, we played a bit at the playgrounds. brought us back to ol' good times =)

we walked to westcoast plaza and went home at 12.

was really nice..

Ouhh yeah, thank you Dear XX for the movie treat that day, it was awsome! shall do it again ya? with my treat next time.
anyways, next week will be a very short week, half day on wed, christmas on thursday, leave on friday and Adik's birthday on saturday.

My parents are still at KL and i miss them so much! When are you coming home ni? =(

The sister has been out since friday to a chalet and im at home, lonely.. hungry! Arrrgghh..like i can just eat a whole cow right now. feels like shoving anything edible right now up my throat.

erm... this morning, while i was reading my book, flipping thru pages after pages, 3 pieces of 50$ notes fell.
i was like "what the heck, where does this things come from?!"
excited la.. like never before happened liket that.

and i cant wait for the 29th Jan.
BALIIIII..... wait for meeee.....

ok, i want to spend my 150$ now. dada~

December 18 2008

2008-12-18T08:23:00.000+08:00

this is a desperate entry by me, as i just want to keep my blog alive haha..

december is ending and 08' is leaving me. im just glad that everything goes very smooth in 08.

Adik Birthday is coming and im not sure what to buy for her. a laptop maybe? can?
i think she needs one..

im on leave on 26th December, so anyone wana date me out?
mcm da lama tak gi shopping2 gitu kan?

Love...

Dear life

2008-10-15T07:39:00.000+08:00

One of my fav songs from anthony hamiltonl.

Early was the morn, flowers filled with dew,
I became somebody, through loving you.
Softly as a child, born in natural rain,
I predict the seasons, to go unchanged.

Sometimes in life,
You run across a love unknown,
Without a reason, it seems like you, belong.
Hold on Dear Life,
Don’t go off running from what’s new,
I became somebody, through loving you.

Warm was the sun, that covered my body so.
Reminded me of you, as I’d first known.
Those were tha days, tha days, that changed my life, and made me new,
I became somebody, through loving you.

Sometimes in life,
You run across a love unknown,
Without a reason, it feels like you, belong.
Hold on Dear Life,
Don’t go off running from what’s new,
I became somebody, through loving you.

As the sun shined, down on me,
I know with you in love is where I wonna be,
Oooh sometimes, I go on through life,
Thinking that love is something that’s not meant for me,

Woooah...Somebody, somebody.

Hold on dear life,
Don’t go off running from what’s new,
I became somebody, through loving you.
I became somebody, through loving you.
Oh, I became somebody, through loving you.

14/10/08

2008-10-14T12:21:00.000+08:00

Dearest,

I am really sorry to hear about your Dad,

We both know that he is now with Allah in a better place with all his sufferings gone.

i know how much his pain caused you sorrow and grief, and i found it estremely difficult to see you bear it.

But, i guess.. Allah will never give us more than we can bear, and he is with you through every step in your life, for better for worst.

Your dad will always be with you, his spirit and good will be part of you and your family no matter where you go.

i kno you wanted, needed, and hoped for more time to spend with your fther but the time you did spend with him meant so much to him.

Your dad love you very very very much and i know you will miss him terribly.

Allah gives us example on earth of how we should live our lives and your father was one of the best examples i know, and ever heard of...

I wanted to let you know that i am here for you at any time you need me- Just to listen, or to talk.

I already told you this, but i wanted to say it again, Please dont hesitate to call me at home or at work, anytime.

I love you...

With my deepest sympathy, deepest condolences,

Misshottysmurf Lina

monday 22 September 08

2008-09-22T09:36:00.000+08:00

and yes, 8 more days to Raya and have not even bought any raya clothes yet -_- my schedule is that pack ok.
my mind is kinda empty now- today, well not just today, but every other day while trying to do some good ol' entries.

i have alot of things to buy.. ive repaint my whole house pink-lavander, with alil bit of white, and it looks kinda c-c hahaha.. more like a play house to me, like a very cute one.

the curtains are not bought yet, and cakes are not baked.. and already the toilet seats are making last min problem so i have to replace them.

ouh, talking abt shoes! i feel like going to JB to buy shoes! mum warned me, if i buy another pair, she'll throw or at least give all my unused shoes to the rumah kebajikan. (and, to think abt it, rumah kebajikan, ada ke org pakai tumit tinggi? =_+) hahaha

maybe shall drag baby to JB next week! hehehe or this weekend! if i can spend 600RM to buy all my things, including 2 pairs or baju kurong, 2 pairs of shoes, accessories, and of course toilet seats, frames, big boxes and so on and so forth. i'll be greatful. (maybe i am kinda cheapskate- err.. not all the time la eh)

the office is super quiet, the migration of some technical stuffs are making me so darn tired waiting. I CANT UP LOAD LOGOS TO THE JC SITE!

i am that pissed oh k!

anyways... 8 day 8 days 8days 8 dayssss more!

17 august 08

2008-08-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

hello world!

its been the first since, im not sure how many days since i last update.
yesterday was JobsCentral's JCLF and i was shagged to the core, my legs were kinda wobbly and yes, the boyfriend fetched me. -_-

the boyfriend had just bought his new laptop, his new baby.. i guess he'll forget me after sometime =( the "baby" is sleek and stylish! VERY compact and cute, its 10 inch and yes, not forgetting comes with webcam! muahahah.. nice? thanx to me, lol

im now doing this entry at JP's Mcdonalds' with the boyfriend's new "baby". the boyfriend is just right beside me, reading what im typing , as usual hes very Kaypo. -_-

im dragging to go to work tmr...... why why must i work? can i be a tai tai instead? -_-

and ouh yeah, Congrats to Angah, Selamat Pengantin Baru yeh! Smoga happy2 selaluuu..=)

Nurul, if youre reading this, date me out soon. im avail on Tues wed thurs friday, but thursday is gona be the best! ok fine, thursday then! text me soon. Love love

XOXOXOXO
your gorgeouslicious cyber babe,
misshottysmurf Lina

some quiz

2008-07-24T18:14:00.000+08:00

hello to all who bothered to read my entries, been so long since i update anything as im am- as perusual- Lazy.

im kinda bored now, and thats why, this happens.

1. What time did you get up this morning? usually 0645

2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds are girls best friend?

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Hmm..Hmm.. Hmm.. been long isint it?

4. What is your favorite TV show? erm.. arrr... hmm.. (kinda hard to ans)

5. What do you usually have for breakfast? An apple + Milo cereals with milk

6. What is your middle name? Does "Bte" count?

7. What food do you dislike? Im not choosy larhs..

8. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Duffy- Rockferry

9. What kind of car do you drive? Hyundai Avante

10. Favorite sandwich? Tuna with Mayo

11. What characteristic do you despise? Stubborness

12. Favorite item of clothing? Everything new i guess

13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Vanice

14. What color is your bathroom? Blue

15. Favorite brand of clothing? I wear anything. nice

16. Where would you retire to? ouh, let me think... emm.. emm...

17. What was your most recent memorable birthday? last year with the hoogaz, in the study room- i almost cried. ouh, anyways..........

18. Favorite sport to watch? ouh, didnt i tell you, i watch hot guys? my recent sport that is

19. Furthest place you are sending this? anywhere larhs...

20. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? I expect everybody to copy this and put it up their blogs too

21. Person you expect to send it back first? People who.. have nothing to do like Stella Isabella

22. Favorite word? "Can"

23. When is your birthday? 31st Aug

24. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night?

25. What is your shoe size? 8

26. Pets? Hamster called Hammy

27. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share with us? Im getting married soon

28. What did you want to become when you were little? A news anchor.

29. How are you today? I hate migranes, plus Laksa at DSO quite nice ey? who wants to go drink tmr?

30. What is your favorite candy? Minty types

31. What is your favorite flower? Lilies

32. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? 15th and 25th

33. What is your full name? Nora malina Bte Abdul Rahman- but-u-can-just-call-me-hottie

34. What was the last thing you ate? satay

35. Do you wish on stars? haha i wish i can see stars..

36. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Red

37. How is the weather right now? Cloudy

38. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Mummy

39. Do you like the person who sent this to you? hmmm.. can larhs

40. Favorite soft drink? soft drinks ey? not hard? haha Qoo white grape

41. Favorite restaurant? i show no favtism -_-

42. Hair color? brown with black shades?

43. Sibling? 1 sister, brother

44. Favorite day of the year? Morning of Hari Raya

45. What was your favorite toy as a child? Barbie and poly pockets!

46. Summer or winter? Don’t know how either feels like

47. Hugs or kisses? Hugs

48. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla

49. Do you want your friends to email you back? Whart the fark for?

50. When was the last time you cried? When.... i feel like i wanna

51. What is under your bed? er, shoes, books, and a whole lot more stuffs

52. Who is the friend you have had the longest? Christina- but i guess shes dead now-ouhwell..., what about second longest?

53. What did you do last night? sleep

54. Favorite smell? LuLu

55. What are you afraid of? My dad? hahaa

56. Plain, buttered, or salted Popcorn? Sweet and salted, mixed!

57. How many keys on your key ring? 5

58. How many years at your current job? hmm.. 6 months?

59. Favorite day of the week? Friday!

60. How many towns have you lived in? errrmmm..

61. Do you make friends easily? Yes.

62.How many people will you be sending this to? im not sending to anyone. those miserable boring toads out there reading this crap, can choose to do this miserable quiz and take ur farking time to waste more time. - what the fish am i talking abt?

16 june 08

2008-06-16T17:40:00.000+08:00

this is so boring, baby is not here to accompany my night. and im craving for very thick soya bean milk. what on earth am i thinking!

i think i want to be a workaholic, can?

15th June 2008

2008-06-15T11:40:00.000+08:00

baby will be on his one week of reservist, and how am i to cope when hes not here?
and that means, i have to call him. =(

im gona keep myself occupied for this one week, so, work, here i come!"
I received Shanti's invitation to her birthday party on the 21st. ive asked Fattah to accompany me there.. but im not sure he wants to tag along with Riz and myself.

tmr's monday, here comes monday blues again. i've yet to calculate the comms for the whole sales team this month, not forgetting, this week, is gona be a 3 day work week, due to company event. so, tell me ppl. how am i suppose to finish up my workload.
i just think, that im plain lazy, pemalas! thats all..

and oh yeah, baby and me ate Beef noodles yesterday, how ironic, i dont like to eat beef yet i eat beef noodles yesterday. blardy nonsense!

To all Fathers,

Happy Fathers Day!

I love you Papa!!!

i'll update soon, laters~

i'll update soon..

2008-06-14T11:43:00.000+08:00

this blog is dead, kinda dead, but not really dead yet.
Headed to town and the museum yesterday, accompanied Nurul for her project. anyways, seen the Post Moi Doi thingy at the museum..

ahh.. thats all i can think of right now..

i'll update soon,
laters.

im broke

2008-06-02T07:53:00.000+08:00

im on half day today, and shit, my bosses are not here! shit laaa.. waste time only.
meeting my baby for his check up and i think, i wana sshoooop!

err.. i better not, felt really guilty, i spent a bomb last week. =(
i bought a Guy larouche bag! haha this time for sure.

not even half a month, im barely broke!
- paid $600 of dad's accident - he bang into another car
- paid for seasonal parking
- paid for saman
- my dad's and my hp bills
- broadband bill
- bought baby a new wallet af FX connection
- bought my brother a new pair of glasses
- paid of monthly car bill
- bought new shoes + dress plus everything else =(

ok end of topic- IM BROKE! IM FUCKING BROKE =(

19th may 08

2008-05-19T11:45:00.000+08:00

its been weeks since i update anything here, including some man business bitching.
i had such rough time and to be precise, its hard to forget those "good-luck charmed" memories that some of your "bestfriends" yaya wanabees promised you.
but anyways, i still have those close to me, cherrised me when im like a rotten shit egg right now.
to all those guys out there, whom u think you are in any of those categories that i mentioned, thank you- for making my life a good one =)

memories will be memories, good bad, spiced all in one.

Hazel will be back this wed from mount kinabalu and the boyfriend is enjoying his ass at tioman. haiz.. and me? nvm

ive been confirmed earlier then the month stated. its my fourth month on the job, and i think i feel more overwhelmed than i ever have in my life -_-
im not sure i can imagine a more daunting task then finding ways to improve the efficiency of a department.
Theres so much to learn, so many things to read, so many people to talk to..
and i know better than to waste any time before producing results: my job is to improve productivity, which means, above all that, i need to produce.

im like half dead, everytime my work finish for the day.
this is so not good. wheres my night life mojo gone to?

besides that, im obsess with loosing weight, whenever i look at my old pictures, they turn me down. bahhhh..
anyways, thats not the issue here.

my boss gona be on 3 weeks hols with his wife, and heard that shes expecting. congrats.

ouh well. i better iron my mother's clothes now, before i kena nag.
hahah

28 april 2008 8.54pm

2008-04-28T16:55:00.000+08:00

for your info, this i gave my laptop to the brother and hes as happy as a flying dutchman. and now, im saving every penny for mothers day gift, the boyfriend's gift and also a new lappy. hopefully, the boyfriend will surprise me with the Ipod touch this 15th. =p (or u can just buy me that creative mp3)

iamsobored,idunnowhattotypenomore!

im waiting for baby to come home. miss you B, can i give u a big fat smoochy smoochy kiss =)

27 April 2008 saturday 1.57pm

2008-04-27T09:57:00.000+08:00

and yes, finally, the pay.. i think, its rather said to be cheap labour then professional.
anyways, the cycle will repeat again, pay bills, buy that, buy this etc etc.

the whole family is going to JB, tot of going too.. should i? or shd i just meet the boyfriend instead? i miss him already. =(

mothers day is near and im not sure what to surprise the the mother (s).
was thinking of buying them the Oto massager, what do you think guys?

some unusual quotes -_-

2008-04-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

Higgamous hoggamous Women are monogamous;
Hoggamous Higgamous Men are polygamous!

12 April 2008 12.17pm

2008-04-12T08:18:00.000+08:00

ive been waiting for this day since the first day of the week, yes, its saturday today and its time for shopping! hahah
the boyfriend is currently mad at me, because i pillioned a friend's super 4. and hes not talking to me since yesterday, and yes, i msged him early morning today to say hello and greet him a good day.
but yet, no reply still..

kinda feeling a lil fucked up coz, its irritating ah, i didnt do anything sinful, yes? anyways, baby, if u read this, call me. i need to do some shopping! hahah

and ouh yes, yesterday work, no government at all. my lunch was from 12 to 3 and my tea break is like forever since our bosses are not in the office, apa lagi, jin naik tochang ah! lol my day was going fine until this person (whom i know, is a pile of shit) made me fishing moody.

to that significant superficial pile of shit, please snap out of your insecurities. you simply make me puke my guts out. i simply excrete out the bile and filthy toxins, i disgorge you cunning piece of dung out of my impurities.

i dont have to hate you, but you made me do it. u simply son of a bitch!

i can feel the Intense animosity towards you and please, im not intersted in your affairs. coz ur life is full of detestation.

anyways, the sky is raging again, so i;ll better be off. -_-

23 march 2008 11.02am

2008-03-23T07:15:00.000+08:00

do u know that, we retain 10% of information when we read, 20% of info when we hear, 30% of what we see,50% of what we see and hear, 70% of what we say as we talk and 90% of what we say as we do a thing.

isnt that true? for example when we have spelling, we spell while we write it in a piece of paper and pronounce the actual word that we spelled just then = 90% info!

ttaaadaa!
ok im simply mad, because the boyfriend is not replying to my msgs, and its already 11am? dont tell me, hes still asleep? anak bujang ape ni, tido sampai larut pagi hingga petang! chey..!

i miss the boyfriend, ive not met him since.. last 4 days? yea, thats it.
the boyfriend's birthday is coming and i dun even have any idea what to buy for him.

i got to know that, to understand people and human nature, its simply involves recognizing people for what they are - serious, and not what you think they are not what you want them to be. (i hope u understand what im trying to say haha)

people (no matter how heavy they are, how tall, skinny, black, brown, white, log hair, short hair, no hair, whithout hair, etc etc) are primarily interested in themselves, and not in you and what you do -_-

putting this in same though another way- the other person is ten thousand times more interested in him/herself then he/she is to you.
and vice versa! you are nore interested in yourself than you are in any other person in the world.

seriously. i hate ppl talking about themselves when they are talking to me and for those of you who commented on my blog, about me so happily indulge abt myself (which ive already deleted those awful comments)
aku punya suka ah, its my blog anyways, dah bagus tu aku tak taruk muka krg and talk bulls about you guys, true? and please, if you think youre good enuff, tell me stright to my face, you dont have to bush around =)

simple as that.

i miss you baby, meet me soon=) iloveyou

21 march 2008 3.48pm

2008-03-21T11:49:00.000+08:00

phew, its been days since i post any entries.having mood swings eversince.. i have no either when.
and fish, i hate my cellphone, always goes kaput whenever i have no intention to either change for a new one or buy.

its abit late yes, but. its. the. thought. that. counts. YES?
Happy birthday to my father - Abdul Rahman Bin Ma Ali and my long time bestfriend - Nurulhuda Bte Ab Rahman.
i love you both alot, may good things be at your side. always.

today, good friday. i presume, its not that good after all.. am boring, no one asked me out and my mum is sleeping, so i guess we're not going out.

ouhwell..

and ouh yes, dad's car got stolen. haha!
its kinda heart pain, yes, coz ive been paying for the monthly car bill. -_- and not to say, just topped up the tank, to its fullest, the day before it was gone.

i was thinking of doing business, maybe retail hospitality, like spa or something..
and that needs loadsa planning. -_-

its pouring soon, so i better stop- need to angkat kainnn...

09 march 2008 2.33pm

2008-03-09T09:34:00.000+08:00

currently listening to: Sunday morning - Maroon 5

its pouring cats and dogs, lizzards and rats, rabbits and hamsters. im feeling rather heaty, altho its raining -_- tmr, is monday, i guess the blues are already hitting me. Gawwwd, why cant i be a tai tai? haha
while waiting for my korea movie to load, here i am typing crap for my blog entries. my friends asked me how come i update tru multiply.com, erm.. because its easier for me to access tru there, and both multiply.com and blogger will receive my contents. i mean, kill 2 birds with one stone, ey?
(for my multiply friends) my blog add will be @ misshottysmurf.blogspot.com, and no longer using lilmisshot.blogspot.com due to some personal reasons. but yes, ive already transfer most of my entries dated back from 0'5 (i think) to the current one.

i shall shamlessly admit that, i have no clothes to wear tmr, for work, i mean, those in the closet are either too dull for a monday - which i have tons of black and dark colour clothing (and yes, my mother said, to cover my fat ass and my big round water retention tummy). where are all my bright sunny coloured clothes?? -_-

wow, malaysia election, fasinating hahaha- not really la,
Barisan national (BN) won about 443 seats and PAS won 106 seats, the 3rd goes to DAP, who came up with 100 seats only.

XOXOX

08 march 1159 pm

2008-03-08T19:14:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMG! imran replied to my entry!!! (swollow saliva - take a deep breath) pheeewww... ok im getting dizzy now. because of? of.... errr.. lack of iron? most prolly, yes! the time of the month is coming, and i hate it. due to some personal encounters i had last few months. (shall not tell what happened)

ouh well.. Verge is having 50% sale store wide and Tangs (as what bestie said) are having salesssssss.. Cant wait to go! and splurge on er... shoes?
solution: drag nurul and piz for retail therapy soon, on tuesday please girls?

i cant use my credit cards already, because my mum refused to pay the bills. so, terpaksa pakai duit gaji sendiri. kesian kan? tsk tsk tsk...

got really fustrated yesterday because i cant watch pesta pesta pesta on Suria channel, because my brother will be going ( and now will be - past tense- because he go already) to Selangor for some cultural exchange thingy, and my mother decided to dine in at Bilal, which i got abused financially after dinner.

im so gona miss my brother- take care baby brother, do eat well and take care of yourself.

current status: craving for chocolate indulgence and cheese cake apple crumble @ Secret recipe
anyone out there, willing to ask me out for tea break? -_-

ouh yeah, before i forget, tmr will be the last day for that IT fair.. so, see u guys there (kalau terserempak, jgn lupa say hi ok! hahah)

and now, the bed is calling me again, (i know, i know its saturday and why am i sleeping early..blah blah blah)

toodles all, take care and dont forget to say your prayers before sleeping

XOXOXO
your cyber hottie
Noramalena bte A Rahman

06 march 2008 9.53pm

2008-03-06T16:53:00.000+08:00

My boss did some restructuring of work cycle/ flow for me coz i complained that i dont have anything to do, or either that i only have tad lil things to do. yesterday was my monthly review with him and i told him that i would wana be in the PR/Marketing department in a year time, he was abso fine with it and wanted me to focus more on my career path.

ouh well, today was tiring, not really stressful buy just plain tired. ive been on my bed since the time i came home (after my dinner at 630 that is)

ive yet to pay the monthly bills, car, hp, internet, carpark... wahh seh! alot man.. bankrupt seh this month..

thank gawd its friday tmr. and yeah, didnt i told you that i've a crush on Imran.. Imran Ajmain! i've been repeating the same songs by him last few days on my mp3.. and i like it. alot!
Imran, if youre reading this (i bet not -_-) can i date you out? or movie?
ouh, bitch, i sound so despo. how could i? -__-

anyways, im craving for arnolds. and i wana buy new shoesssss....
baby, lets go shopping, can!?

again, the bed is calling me...its freeeezing!

good night ladies, gentlemen, baby... and imran ajmain. hehehe =p

26 Feb 08 9pm

2008-02-26T16:00:00.000+08:00

its been more then a week since i did any proper update. and the reason is.. im too tired, erm.. lets make things simple. im too lazy to update.
work was great. the people there keeps me motivate. they keep my mojo running to do more. haha
i've been having migranes, and ive started wearing skirts to work - ouh how unusual. -_-
and food at NUS was dead cheap, can u imagine, chicken chop, (salad, baked beans, fries, chicken) cost $2.20.
im addicted to the thosai at Ghim moh.. and its cheap. haha

heard that my sec sch will be having some home coming thingy. and im still thinking wthr to go or give it a miss..

anyways, my bed is calling..
update soon alright.

XOXOX
LR (thats what they call me at work)

valentines' day 2008 10.38pm

2008-02-14T17:38:00.000+08:00

this year vals' day was kinda sweet, in a way, everyone in the office felt the impact of appreciation from one another.
my boss gave a stalk of pink roses to every one of us in the office. sweet right =)

a few of my colleagues' boyfriend send roses, one of them even had a person sing for them love songs =) hahaha
after hours, met baby and had dinner.
i love the flowers and the care bears ( i wanted them so much and got it at last! haha)
i love you baby, thank you

i even change my bed covers/ sheets to pink- roses to suit the valentines' day mood hahahah.
nice right? lol

anyways, we're having Chinese new year Lunch instead of dinner at safra yishun.
and ive not yet search for the bloody red top, anyways im kinda sleepy.
i'll update soon ppl.

loadsa love,
Misshottysmurf

p/s: i love love love love you baby..

13 feb 2008 9.35pm

2008-02-13T16:36:00.000+08:00

this friday will be the company's dinner at yishun safra and all are suppose to wear red. im not sure i have red tho, must check out my wardrobe.
ermm..
im not sure i wana go either. i wana spend time with baby. i've been planning this for quite some time, but i dont really think its gona work out the way i expected.

anyhos, im super tired, been on the net non stop.
for those peeps, whom i didnt reply to ur yahoo massenger or msn, sorry, im too busy at work.
got loadsa things to do lately. -_-

im sleepy already, heading bed soon, coz i dont want to chat with my granduncle and aunt from KL. hahaha
ok ppl, good night sleep tight, dont let the ponti-ponti bite =)

tc ya'll
XOXO

11 feb 2008 11pm

2008-02-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

today was my first day at work, and not bad i can say, the environment preeetttyy ok.
and i hate MRT rides, they're always full. and i got the $899 sit (as what one of my colleague said, Rain concert ticket) in front of the boss, luckily im not like her - her's even best, in front of the director -_-

hmmm..
this is one of my company's mag issue,
and that stud there, is Larry, right? -_-
wah Larry, famous already ah.. tapi mata mu tetap sepet ah beb. lol

pardon my ugly malay lang.

sleeping time, soon..
baby promised me to fetch me after work, but batang hidung pun tak da. bleahz!

p/s: im craving for sup tulang, baby jom kita makan esok? plsss....

09 feb 2008 5.08pm

2008-02-09T12:08:00.000+08:00

when the grandfather clock at the hall striked 4 just now, my hp vibrated with riz's msg. knowing it wsnt her who sent me one, it was her sister, telling me that Riz's was warded in and just had an operation.
ouh well, i need to visit her asap.

and tonight will be the al-mukminin cycling thingy. i seriously have no mood to go. haiz and im so hungry, that i can eat a whole cow, just by myself. hahaha ok thats crap!

rasa-rasanya mcm nk makan kerepek ubi pedas, mana ye nk beli?
i shall go to the provision shop below before i berambus to ECP for the cycle later. fudge man! why must i have cravings- always?
ni la kaum hawa... =p

08 feb 2008 12.46pm

2008-02-08T07:49:00.000+08:00

camping and picnic.. so not my cuppa tea. besides the hot hot weather and drowning myself with sweat, im also not a fan of the sand and the sea.
outdoors was not on my side afterall.
yesterday's camping/ picnic was not really bad, i enjoyed the scenery of the calm sea while watching little kids playing with the warm water and making sandcastle.
while the chinese peeps are having goodies and sweets, i stuff myself with carbs and protein. -_-

here are some of the pics, i took. will post only some, coz i look awful in most of them, blah.

ouh yeah,
finally watched 300 today -_- ( i know, i know.. so extra right, so lambat right)
i like, but i hate the killing scene.

my cousin sister gona get married on the 15th of aug, and i seriously need to loose weight. hah!
i have to stop here, meeting the boyfriend soon. =)
good day people

05 feb 2008 10.46pm

2008-02-04T17:46:00.000+08:00

ask me about, how im doing now? -_-
its kinda sad, coz im missing the boyfriend so badly it hurts!

meeting nurul and april tmr (will be just the two of them, due to some .....) anyways, we're heading to bugis for fish and co, and alil shopping. seriously, i cant wait.

ouh well.
need to tuck in real soon. im having this damn flu due to insufficient rest.
take cafe all.

3 feb 2009 10.39pm

2008-02-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

yes finally, baby bought me this!
thank you baby

riz's birthday party was a blast, hope she likes her presents =)

and and and, im starting work on 11th. haiz... what a blahhh..
im having sore throat and flu, double blah for me =(

01 feb 2008 1.53pm

2008-02-01T09:14:00.000+08:00

firstly,
Happy 20th birthday to NorMawar Sariza aka Riz aka Rizzy aka DekNo!
may Allah bless you with all the best in life, may you your wishes come true.
i hope you'll get thru with everything smoothly, InsyAllah.
whatever with the past has gone, the best is yet to come. and and and, May you live all the days of your life!
HAVE A BLAST! YEY!
see you soooooon!

the birthday girl invited me to her bbq party.. and im not sure what to wear! hmm..

im kinda shocked cum happy, got an offer for that job at that mag company, preeety excited actually. hahaha
im so gona miss the kids, those lame jokes, those snacking sessions eating bananas with caramel sauce and the cranky mood they gave me during maths session..
and the pay i got.. awww.. so gona miss that. =(

anyhos, must start searching for formal wears. and that means i can wear my hills more often, yeyness! haha

my siblings are having flu and that means fever is gona strike soon, if they're not taking their daily vit C that is.

i miss talking to nurul on the phone, like last time, we would hang on the phone for hours and hours.. until my mum suggested a cordless phone so that i can sit in my room to yack! haha
ouh well, i miss you bestie!
meet me soon. for coffee club.

alright, i think i'll end this here- for now.
will update soon, i guess

take care people-who-bother-reading-my-blog!
loadsa love
misshottysmurf

31 jan 2008 12.02am

2008-01-30T19:02:00.000+08:00

finally, i got mine from Ipanema!
thank you baby, i love you so much =)

jan 30 2008 4.04pm

2008-01-30T11:05:00.000+08:00

riz birthday is coming,
and she needs

love

kids, say the darnest things -_-

2008-01-29T12:38:00.000+08:00

"kak Lina, your dress like old fashioned flower rag lah, is it in fashion now?"

that was what my student said to me, when i open the gate to enter his house.
blardy, its a limited edition British Indian dress that cost me a bomb ok! -_-
how could he...

"kak Lina, i prefer you to wear kurta and jeans, and slippers, i think u look great"

kids, they say the DARNEST things that sometimes can make u have 100 different moods a day!
ouh well..
i'll wear jeans and slippers next time. or better.. everytime i go tuition ok!

-_-

im home now to change and will be going to JP, having dinner with my parents =)
i promise i'll up date soon.

29 jan 08 2.12pm

2008-01-29T09:12:00.000+08:00

i've not been telling anyone (all, including the bestfriends and boyfriend) about my busy schedules right from the beginning of 08' and end of 07'. and now im having some problems. lol
tutoring 9 students are fun but when it comes to payment, i tell u, i can die counting.

4 of them will be sitting for their PSLE this year and they are super cranky when comes to maths. hahaha
and i think i've seen some improvements. coaching them English is the worst, i tell you! since malays are famous for not reading, literally english lang, its hard for them to do composition and comprehension passages.

dont ask me why im so desperate until i did tutoring. hahaha
well, this year,most of my bestfriends will be celebrating their 21st birthday and i think its a must for me to buy them something special yet expensive.. come on, its 21st eyy?
and the boyfriend and I, are celebrating out XXXXth years together and i've planned quite alot for the upcoming events. =)

mother told me not to over stress myself, by tutoring kids, (nt really my cuppa tea actually) but i've been enjoying their lively and cynical companies, how they make lame jokes and how they misspelled a word during the spelling activities.
and how they showed me things are not that impossible afterall.

the kids expect an ongoing process of 4 times a week (instead of 2-3 times a week) and 3 hours of coaching (instead of 1.5-2hours per coaching) because they love telling me lame jokes. =p
blahz!
i think i need to increase the fees, if they want me to stay for long. hahaha

my hours are consumed, (mostly 8 hours of my daily time) with these kids. and i think im happy, altho theres no cpf contribution. -_-
but the sum of money i gt,are really an eye opener. =p

ok,i think i need to go. before im late, the kids are waiting.
take care lovelies.=)

23 jan 2008 12.19pm

2008-01-23T07:20:00.000+08:00

my iterview with that mag cum classified company went well =) and i hope to get the job. i really need the job,
you get me!! hehe
and the pay, not badddddd... hehehe i pop up when they discussed about the bonuses. haha
anyways, money is not important. (what my mother and bestie said, "duit leh carik.. mana2, what is money? ") hahah
what i want is to work in a very carefree, fun and creative environment. dun really care abt office politics, as long as i get the position that i want.

money, work- aside. PHULESE!

ouh yeah, i fell down, and had a huge wound on my left leg gara2 pakai kasut baru yg tinggi la , well not really new, but ive not worn it before, so consider new lah ehh..

having non stop craves these few days, always the same cravings- deep fried breadfruit!
ive been searching non stop! and found none.
eh, shdnt i suppose to regulate healthy lifestyle? fried summore! tsk tsk tsk..
Oppa, i want sukun, search for me can? =p

today's Thaipusam right? happy Thaipusam to all Indians =)
(did i get the spelling right? righttt....)

baby, this is for you

Ketika ku putus harapan kau ke depan
Tika ku jatuh tersungkur kau bangunkan
Ku bersyukur kerana dikau ada
Kau buat hidup daku sempurna
Tika ramai yang membenci ku kau sayangi
Tika ramai yang memuji kau mengerti
Masa ku bukan hanya milik kita
Tetapi untuk dikongsi semua

Andainya kau tiada aku kan parah
Kehilangan arah dan hancur rebah
Kaulah segalanya makna kehidupanku
Oh tuhanku tolonglah beriku restu
Ku dalam pelukannya di saat itu
Saat daku dipejamkan mataku

Kau beri ku kekuatan bila tertekan
Beri yang ku perlu dan cintamu
Aku yakin akulah jejaka
Yang paling bertuah di dunia

Semoga dia bersama
Saat daku pejamkan mata
Saat daku pejamkan mataku
Oh Tuhanku biarlah dia di situ

Oh Tuhanku biarlah dia di situ
Menemani diriku
Saat daku pejamkan mataku

Diriku ingin bersama ke akhirnya
Dan bila daku melamar katalah iya
Hanya itu saja ingin ku dengar
Ku kan ikhtiar terbaiknya untukmu

muhammad yusof, i love you
and i know u read my blog, so continue reading hahaha..

21 jan 2008 11.09am

2008-01-21T06:09:00.000+08:00

well, im doing the laundry while typing this shit out of me.
ive been very miserable lately, hahah. simply because im broke and i miss the boyfriend so much- err.. not really, not as much as i miss my bitches! haha

i need someone to talk to,like personal girl to girl talk, i miss my besties.

oppa..
i miss you,
can we date soon? and and and, i wana go shopping, i needdd shoooeess!

oppa, i love you

muacks!

.

2008-01-15T11:40:00.000+08:00

to my sexy love, Mohammad Yusof Bin Jamal

This is to thank you for being by side
For comforting and caring when I was all confused inside.
This is for the phone calls you make every day
Just to tell me "I love you" every minute of the day.

The way you take my hand in yours
For all the world to see
That this is the woman
Who is most special to me.

You always seem to know
When I need a hug, kiss or smile
You never cease to amaze me
When you say, "I'm here let's talk for a while."

five years past we've had our share
Of ups and downs and problems galore
But you are the one who remained at my side
Never thinking of walking out the door.

I adore the way you tell me,
"You are my forever best friend,"
I love the way I believe in you
And that you will be there till the end.

Thank you for all the time you give me
And for saying, "It's never enough"
Thank you for listening as I ramble on
When things become rather tough.

We are in the best years of our lives
five years on our journey together
I want to grow old with you, baby

I want to love you
forever

your angel
Noramalina Bte Abdul Rahman

15 jan 2008

2008-01-15T07:15:00.000+08:00

sometimes, those sayings from my friends, usually the close ones make me pounder...

for example what bestie and Christina said " u sacrifies for him so much, buy him that and buy him this, u even die die plan things for him. what abt yourself? did he do the same?"

did my boyfriend do the same?
perhaps he did, perhaps not..
those lil or what i called precious ones shall not be revealed to anyone. i want to make those special lil things he do or buy for me deep within my soul.

ive always been happy to see my boyfriend happy. i dont need things or presents to make me happy (unlike others -_-)

im not a materialistic kinda girlfriend, and i dont need him to lavish me with expensive things =)
the boyfriend gave me more then enuff TLC and i couldnt thank him enuff.

anyways, thank you guys for ur concern. hahaha ilu!

today is our anni,
its been sooo long (i know!) hahaha
mcm sekejap gitu eh?
feels like, we just met and we just get to know each other. hahaha

baby,

Your my first & only love,
For you I'd give the world,
Your heart i will never break,
I give you my word,
I still remember the first time we met,
& our first kiss the park,
I remember how you made me smile,
even better how you made me laugh,
Falling asleep in your arms,
was my place of peace,
the only time i could be myself,
the only place i wanted to sleep,
you will be with me for the rest of my life,
you will always own my heart,
the only person would be Allah himself,
who could ever tear us apart ...

baby, i love u so so so much
meet me soon, i miss you

14 jan 2008

2008-01-14T14:40:00.000+08:00

i just got back from town (met the bestfriend, we had fried marsbars and window shopped and chat and share hot gossips! hahaha i love you darling) about 30 minutes ago and wanted to shared an important "success" reminder with you guys.

im not sure about you guys, but getting out of the house especiall when u didnt go out for like 3-5 days, sometimes a pain in the butt (because need to iron the clothes that we wana wear, must make up and look presentable, must check the EZ link, must plan what to wear.. blah blah blah..) but we all have to do somethings we dont want to do, riiggghhhttt.... =)

during the outing, i told myself not to eat like a pig and spend like some rich tai-tai hahaha.. because, i wanted to loose some weight, so was thinking of dieting lah kan and wanted to save up some money for ppl's birthday la kan?

but it was tougher then i tot.

i wanted to eat that, buy that, hold that, try that, and everything else.

i wanted to buy so badly, but i didnt! hah!

what i did was, keep my hands to myself. and think of things to buy next few weeks.

you see, we need to be riminded that the MAGIC does not happen in the 1st mile, it happens when you go the EXTRA mile for yourself and for others.
and sometimes we need to make the first move to lead people to the correct path, its your choice, either u want or u dont want.

but heres a catch, people quit on themselves without trying.
unfortunately, they then neverget to taste the MAGIC that could have taken plave for them. that same magic that could have transform their body from ordinary to extraordinary.
i think that magic taste would be so sweet. hhaha

are you ready to give that extra 5 percent?
i cant tell for sure, but i really feel that you are ready.
am i right?

make you move, smoothly =)

now dont get me wrong, i care about you =)

i miss the boyfriend. miss me too?

13 jan 08 2.09am

2008-01-12T21:08:00.000+08:00

my life stinks! serious, to the core.

and i believe no one reads my blog/ entries too.. im just sick and tired of what ive been doing for the last few days, i need a life, a real one. (not that i mean, my life is not real, but just plain nothings. )

heres a blah entry for everyone. including myself.

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i cant sleep, my blardy sister is watching the stooopid TV and the room is so bright.. arrrghh!!!!

goodnight love.

12 jan 2008

2008-01-12T06:54:00.000+08:00

the boyfriend just got home from him company holiday, Bali. i wish i was there, showering the sun rays, sheading fat sweat and making hot love on the beach with the boyfriend (yeah.. i wish ) yet again, i have to complete the comitee task for Al-mukminin youth.

i soo miss the boyfriend, wonder what he bought for me? =p mcm tak sabar gitu kan, nk dapat presents. our anni is coming, and that reminds me that i need to get something for the boyfriend as well..
i was thinking of getting that polo t-shirt from ralph lauren or crocodile. but see first la,whats my budget will be.

ouh yeah, did i tell u guys that
Al-mukminin youths will organize a
Multiracial Night cycling programme cum youth recruitement drive
on the 9th to 10th feb?
yes we're gona cycle from ECP to Al-Mukminin Mosque (jurong east)
start with picnic at ECP then the cycling starts at 9pm.
registration fees will be $20 per pax
including food(breakfast, dinner, supper) , certificates, insurance, bike and helment, water boottle and T-shirt.
All those who are interested, please call me or PM me alright.

its gona be so much fun =)

i need a new laptop.. please anyone?

11/01/08

2008-01-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

my beloved aunt passed away last saturday
Al-Fatihah to Hajah Hasimah Bte Muhammad Ali.

may your soul rest in peace.
its hard for me to believe that shes gone, my primary influence, sustainer, supporter and counselor has left me physically.
Makcik was such an active participant in this world right to her very last breath. Im sad that i was not able to be on her side on her very last day,
many a time, she struggled to form words and get them out, but her mind was alert, caring and compassionate. and i can look into her eyes, that she still care abt me, them.. us.

You will always be my loving aunt, my dearest friend. This is only a goodbye to your elegant dignified, worldly body. Your gifts will continue to sustain me until we meet again. I love you, Makcik. Thank you so much for being you.

last but not least, i have some very important thank yous to extend, firstly to my grandmother, thank you for being there for makcik, u gave ur support, and gave up almost everything, when she was at her very last strength.
to all the people of kayangan heights, shah alam - her neighbours especially Cik Ani, thank you for helping in every way. much appreciated, i was so touched when u came just to help my grandmother to wash their clothes and to hang the wet towels just for the sake of helping.
this in return,allowed her to continue to live in her home surrounded by the people and things she loved.And “thank you” to all of you here for being such wonderful friends, it was all of you that helped to keep her so vital and happy right to the end.

makcik, you will always be in my prayers.

i love u

hello...

2008-01-05T09:58:00.000+08:00

just came back from sentosa. the boyfriend's siblings and cousins had some mini bbq feast and chalet yesterday. and OMG i tell you, the chalet is freaking small! mini to the core. haha but but but, it was nice overall..

u guys need to believe me, its the first time, i took no pictures at all.. none, nil, zerooo... hahah and why, because i was sooo 'godek-ing' the boyfriend's new hp and well, actually was obsessing over the boyfriend also hehehe,

i have no idea why, he was so yummey yesterday haha.. really. yummehh!

so anyways, the boyfriend and i woke up early to walk out of sentosa till vivo, and had breakfast at mcdonalds.

my parents and brother is now at sunway lagoon KL, eating carls junior- thats what i heard. they called me early morning to remind me to pray for subuh and then told that they are at KL sunway lagoon eating breakfast. then after a few hours, they were at carls junior eating that cheesy beef chilli frise. blardy. jealous to the core, coz in singpore everything i wanted to eat is not halal. simply because they know that im gona be fat if those glorious food was certified halal, ey? hahaha

--

and at last, me an bestie met after sooo sooo long.
we window shopped and i bought a new ralph lauren polo shorts! hehehe yey! brown colour u know, just like the one i wanted at G200 tapi takde size.

ok, i cant wait to go sentosa next saturday again! yey, cant wait..

loveeeeee
misshottysmurf

lov3

2008-01-03T19:20:00.000+08:00

ive been going to one place to another to check out all different hair salons. well..checking the price range and how they cut ppls' hair.
im abit choosy at these, hahaha well.. i want it to be cheap (like 30 bucks plus washing and drying) yet good workmanship. hahaha
so, where can i get that kinda service here in singapore?

any suggestions people?
i really need to cut my hair.. desperate to cut, more like it.
and please nurul, (if youre reading this), nooo shot hair like you please..

ouh yeah, and the boyfriend just bought his LG Viewty phone. =( im sooo darn jealous. nanti kau, aku beli yg best lagi ahhh.. wekkk!

loveeeee

new year, new me

2007-12-31T20:11:00.000+08:00

whats my new year resolution?
everyone has been asking me that, even my mother..
hmm.. thats preeetttyy hard to answer since my resolution last few years were abit down, not really happening actully. haha

2007, wasnt my best year, wasnt my worst year indeed..
i had fun and at the same time cried for all the misfortunes.
this is the year, that i gain my true friendship and discard all those blardy awful ones. =)
and this year, shopped alot too. ahaha
not forgetting, procrastinating topped of the list! boo for that.

im glad that, i survived.. all those hard times.. all those good ones.
thank you for all those, who had me when i was in my deepest shit, and was there too when i had my bread and circuses (happy hour).
i became blithely unconcerned, when fucks came. (that was the best part of all)

anyways,
my new year's resolutions again for 2008 will be:

1. be more active, do some cardio and shead some flabs - eat healthy, stay healthy
2. watch more TV,ive been missing on some good stuffs.
3. stop procrastinating
4. use more moisturizer and lotions
5. start saving more money
6. smile more, be friendly =)
7. wear non revealing clothings
8. stop buying shoes/bags that i dont think i will wear/use
9. learn arabic lang
10. have a new hair style
11. start on my business asap
12. be mature, think mature, act mature
13. become a better bestfriend, daughter, girlfriend
14. appreciate myself more, love myself more, respect and take self pity once awhile
15. buy a car (if thats possible hahaha)

last but not least.
let bygones be bygones *hugs*
tresure whats worth and use my wits more often. hhaha

i love every single one of you.
happy new year darlings.

look out for the next change : new year, new me =))

imbecile driver

2007-12-31T08:18:00.000+08:00

here come bonus =)
went out the whole day yesterday too.... shop! yes, SHOP! i almost dropped dead when my mum says : eh come lets go out, i want to shop..
headed to jurong point for our breakfast and car polish session first then to suntect coz polo ralph lauren had sales then to carefour (is that the correct spellng?) and lastly to Imm.
i didnt buy anything coz i dont have to mood to shop, due to some stupid driver, i almost had a heart attact and almost had phobia of driving/ sitting in a car.

car plate number SFT3283D, a red maroon toyota driver almost crashed into our car, this fucking chi bye driver dunno how to drive, didnt even give any signal to merge into my lane and after it ( i shall call he/she and "it" because only animals dont have the brains to do something fucking stupid while driving - utterly foolish and senseless person -_-) was in my lane, it slowed down! and i almost crashed into the barrier! fucker!
such ass, blocked head, dimwit, donkey, dork, jackass, moron, meathead, nincompoop!!!
didnt even put up its hand to singnal a sorry. and and if u are such retard, why dont you take ur highway code again, maybe a basic one-_-
or maybe u bribed the TP so that u pass.
numskull!

such schmuck u are! bleahz! boo for u. danger driver.
so people beware of that plate number, i warned u guys already.
=p

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IM SOOO SLEEPY! got up early in morning just to pay bills and conservertives charges. blardy.

ok i shall take a nap

loooove

29 december 2007

2007-12-28T19:48:00.000+08:00

ok people, spare me some space for me to breatheeee...

as i said last few days, we're suppose to dine in at carousel, right, for adik's birthday? it didnt happen, because yours truly didnt managed to call for advance booking and yours truly was so gundu, she even said that its not gona be a full house since its friday. -_-
ok, how dumb can i be at this point?

we drove to marina square for breeks, but carpark was full. ( ada kereta susah, takde kereta pun lagi susah -_-) headed to vivo and again, my head couldnt function, look around and settled for figs and olives. padahal2 breeks is at harbour front, where we parked the car. bloody.

ouh well..
full, tired and fun..
and yeah, i bought a pair of converse sneekers - dont know when will i actually wear it, but.. hey, i my hands are itchy la, coz got money to waste mah.. -_- kekekeke

i miss my suggar pie. *sigh*

good night people.

loooovvvveeeeeeee